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it's been a very looong time since the last time I debating, I almost forgot how. so, nothing called "a late start, didn't it?" motion: "true or false?" I'm not trying to make a plea, because I already know that I don't have any right to pleading myself this moment. Not any. I am also not trying to look wise, or to look kind or even to look cooperative, coz even if I say 'yes', nobody will believe me. I can't believe it myself. I know, I'm not that gentle... So why? I just want you all too see it from my point of view, my paradigm that I believe not as humble as holly people that wrote their names in the history, but as humane as anyone of you. Yes, I'm not longing you to understand me, I just want you to do not misunderstand me. Sigh. Is it too much for a sinner to ask? I never have any desire to grab it, seize it, or make it mine before. I can proof you that I never seduce it, tease it or stealing it or even trying to disturb your happiness. At least, I civilized. I had my own little world before, different in many way from your own world. Now, I still live my life in my own little verse, and I didn't have any plan to change in short moment. I do realize that we never crossed the border, never had any crash before and I assure you, I never will... I also want to be selfish: I just want to be happy.  Ah, in the end, it still hard to accept, rite? Yeah, we are the victims of this awry condition. And I do take a part as the actors of the case. I didn't seek of forgiveness, I was just seeking self mercy and self serenity. And, I assure you, this is the first time and the only time, I'll talk about this. I rest my case... Ah, and it's also the only time that I don't give a damn of people adjudication. Jogjakarta, Saturday night, broken keyboard, heavy rain outside, confuse. Labels: debating, self-respect, stupid Labels: stupid Blokir Blackberry, eh? Ini isu yang sedang hangat-hangatnya terjadi di Indonesia tercinta. Negara pengguna Blackberry terbesar ke 3 di dunia. Satu Indonesia gempar, Twitter dan Facebook isinya hanya 'pisuhan' dari pengguna layanan Blackberry, sedangkan media massa sibuk menanyangkan debat pro kontra mengenai alasan pemblokiran gadget satu ini. Ah, saya salut pada Pak Menkominfo, Pak Tifatul Sembiring yang sangat pandai menjadi 'headline maker' dan tidak pernah merasa tidak nyaman dengannya. Namun pertanyaan saya--sebagai seorang pengguna Blackberry yang merasa kecewa--hanya 'kenapa baru sekarang'? Saya mengerti niat baik yang dimaksudkan oleh bapak mentri, juga mengerti bahwa Blackberry selama ini dianak emaskan. Ya, ketika semua jaringan lain akses terhadap pornografinya diblok, Blackberry tetap dibiarkan 'menyebarkan jaringnya' tanpa adanya proses editorial konteks pornografi di dalamnya. Ya, saya juga menyalahkan RIM yang terlalu sombong. Saya yang nilai pengantar ekonominya jeblok saja tahu bahwa demand berbanding lurus dengan supply, masa perusahaan sebesar itu tidak tahu? Ya, Saya bangga dengan sikap tegas pemerintah yang memaksa RIM untuk mengikuti konstitusi dan undang-undang yang ada di Indonesia. Ya, ya, ya, tapi kenapa blokirnya baru sekarang? Setelah Indonesia menjadi negara pengguna Blackberry terbesar ke 3 di Dunia? Undang-undang anti pornografi di sahkan pada tanggal 30 Oktober 2008 sedangkan Blackberry marak di Indonesia sekitar akhir 2009. Dimulai dari penjualan gelap yang masuk lewat Batam dan Malaysia sampai akhirnya banyak provider lokal yang mengadakan paket BIS dan menjadi distributor Blackberry resmi di Indonesia. Tentunya sebelum Blackberry membanjiri pasar ibu pertiwi, pemerintah sudah harus aware dengan konten yang terdapat di dalamnya. Seharusnya pemerintah juga meperdebatkan baik dan buruknya sebelum Blackberry menjadi sebuah gadget yang paling dicari di Indonesia, sebelum Blackberry beralih fungsi menjadi penunjuk status sosial di Indonesia, sebelum Blackberry menjadi alat 'gaul' remaja masa sekarang! Well, bukannya saya mengamini dan menyetujui gaya gaul remaja sekarang (sebenarnya kalau dilihat dari umur, saya masih bisa dibilang 'remaja' :|). Saya hanya merasa pemerintah kita ini semacam latah melihat negara timur tengah ikut memblokir Blackberry. Sigh. Saya tahu bahwa dalam setiap keputusan harus ada yang dikorbankan. Saya juga tidak menutup mata akan pencapaian menkonminfo lainnya, tetapi saya menganggap bahwa perlu dilakukan sebuah tindakan yang lebih bijaksana daripada penutupan layanan Blackberry pada tanggal 17 nanti. Sebuah keputusan yang tidak kembali mengorbankan rakyat. Distributor, provider, pengguna.... Seperti layaknya sebuah kue, kalau kurang fla tentu kurang enak. BB tanpa kemampuan membuka browser tentunya tidak mengenakkan pula. Tapi seperti kata Prakash Singh. “The administration has done nothing and when we are protesting, the police are beating us.” Lol. #kabur Labels: blackberry, stupid It's been awhile since my show of crying my heart out, in front of everybody. I though I will never do it anymore, I though I was strong.But, now I know: I'm not strong enough... "Expectation is the root of all heartache." Sorry for the discordant cries, ladies and gents. inspired by Iqbal's status at Facebook. The last is him. galau is better than express none of your feelings, dear Rindu... Rindu itu ketika harapan yang membuncah berbalas dengan kenyataan yang terlalu gersang. Rindu itu tabu, datang ketika perasaan berubah semu dan terikat oleh definisi kalbu yang terburu-buru. Kadang palsu. Rindu itu retorika yang berbicara di alam maya, tersenyum menggoda padahal hanya bulir fatamorgana. Rindu itu rasa janggal yang mengganjal yang diteriakkan begitu lantang hanya dalam diam. Bisu. Rindu itu ketika aku hanya bisa menguntit sosok dan pikiranmu di balik imagi jejaring sosial. Hampa. Rindu itu bahkan ketika aku menutup mata, kutemukan bayanganmu dibalik kelopak mataku. Pada akhirnya, rindu adalah ketika kepala tertunduk menyentuh sejadah lusuh. Haru. t.e.a.s.e.r Oh, guys. The Deathly Hallow comes this month. And I just can't sit calmly and wait patiently. NOOOO. So, warming up, huh? :p 01. Top 3 favorite characters & why? Hermione Granger = She's so damn smart X). Luna Lovegood = I'm her mother #ohlongstory. Oliver Wood = Dying of his charm. LOL 02. Did it take a while before you got into the series, or did you immediately fall in love? Immediately. It just like that the book was made for me. When I read it for the first time, I almost forgot to sleep and eat << -.-" Craaaazy.. 03. Favorite villain & why? Narcissa Malfoy. She's not evil. She just... being a good mother for her son. Dilemma. 04. I know you love them all, but list all of the books in order from favorite to least favorite? 3,7,1,5,6,4,2 05. Which one of the deaths did you have the hardest time with? Dobby. He's so loyal. I almost cry myself out :( 06. One of your favorite quotes? "It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that." —Albus Dumbledore on the Mirror of Erised 07. Favorite movie? 3rd 08. Anything you’d change in the epilogue? Just give me a sigh of him. Just a bit!! I want to know how Oliver Wood live his life T_____T 09. What would be your favorite class at Hogwarts? Astronomy, for sure. And Ancient Rune. 10. The cloak, the wand, or the stone? Wand, else don't matter. 11. Is there a character you didn’t like in the books, but loved in the movies or vice-versa? Hagrid. I love him in the books but he's quite different in the movies. Shame. 12. Least favourite character? Cho Cang? LOL 13. Favorite location from the movies? Blake Lake, Astronomy Tower. 14. If you could work at any place in Hogsmeade which would it be? Of course not Honeydukes (I heart my teeth T.T). Hm, maybe the post office, Tomes and Scrolls or a fancy restaurant... (and NOT Madame Puddifoot, please) 15. Top 3 favorite scenes from the series? Charm Room in Magical Ministery (book 6), In Black Family Tree's Room (book 5), 16. If you could ask your favorite character one thing what would it be? Oliver Wood ask me out for Yule Ball :p 17. What would your Patronus be? Hawk 18. What book have you read the most? Half Blood Prince 19. If you had to date a character who would it be? Oliver Wood or The Twins. 20. What would a boggart turn into in front of you? ....Bloody Cat? Jogres? 21. Favorite magical creature? Pheonix. It's my wand's core. 22. Have you ever been to a midnight showing of a movie? Yap. 23. Favorite Dursley? Petunia 24. Who is your favorite professor at Hogwarts? Albus Dumbledore, Filius Flitwick, Aurora Sinistra 25. Which character do you think they did the best job casting for the movies? Emma Watson. Oo-uh. 26. Does it bother you that the movies differ from the books? Sometimes, yes. Is it wrong to expect perfection? But, it still okay. In fact, each director's paradigms brings new color of HP it self. 27. What movie have you watched the most? Prisoner of Azkaban. 28. Have you ever been to the WWoHP, if not do you plan on it? ..... #singing Only Hope - Mandy Moore 29. What would be the first thing you’d buy at the Twins’ joke shop? Pygmy Puff.. unyu beth. Mmm... and love potion (geez, I never realized that I am that desperate) 30. 5 parts of the Deathly Hallows movies (1&2) that you’re looking forward to the most? Hmm... The Prince’s Tale, Seven Harry, Aberforth Dumbledore, Fleur and Bill's Wedding, Nice Kretcher. haha.. Labels: harry potter, lecture, stupid err... I know you sick of my so-love-eenie-meenie-writings :p "Nothing special in Saturday Night," You always heard this statement? Or you are the one who always said it instead? LOL Yap. I am my self, always heard that statement comes out from the one who is 'jomblo' (jomblo: don't-have-a-date-type-guy) around. It's become their self-complacency for having no date. Or maybe it's the pathetic way to get rid of envy feeling when you see pair of love-bird friends that have fun all night long. Well, I understand that feeling (since I have no date too :p) But we, 'jomblos' can make our Saturday Night be special too. How?
Labels: 30 hari menulis, stupid Nothing (interesting) to do. So, lets see how 'dumb' I am :p.... The more [x]’s the “dumber” you are. [ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking So far: [x] You have run into a tree/bush. So far: [ ] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen. So far: [x] You have accidentally caught something on fire So far: [x] Sometimes you just stop thinking So far: [x] You have eaten a bug so far: [ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t. So far: [x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall TOTAL: Now count them up and put “I’ve done 24 stupid things out of 37″ in the title field. Comment?: WOUGH :hammer: Labels: 30 hari menulis, stupid Are we all the “authors of our life”? Kodrat manusia adalah menjadi subjek. Pelaku. Tokoh utama yang memerankan cerita dalam narasi mereka masing-masing. Seberapa jauhpun permainan nasib dan takdir itu berhasil membagi manusia dalam golongan ‘beruntung’ dan ‘nestapa’. Membuat kehidupan manusia satu dan manusia lain menjadi unik. Tanpa ada yang benar-benar sama. Jelas hanya orang yang kuat yang bisa merubah alur ceritanya. Dan seperti hukum alam; yang lemah selalu menjadi korban. Menjadi makanan. Menjadi figuran dalam cerita mereka sendiri. Kodratnya? Ia harus menunggu. Kesopanan ketimuran yang anggun memaksanya diam dan berpura-pura bahwa segala penantian ini tidak memiliki arti ataupun janji. Tidak memberi pengaruh apapun, kecuali kegaulaun yang makin berakar. Menjadi kata lain dan rasa yang berusaha ia pendam. Dan kali ini ia bahkan tak mengerti—lakon apa yang tengah ia mainkan. Absurd. Yang ia tahu, hanya ia sedang dipermainkan oleh hal yang sama-sama mereka tidak tahu: masa depan... Labels: self-respect, stupid So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do Labels: stupid I’m always considering myself as a good citizen. I bought local products, I paid my taxes on time, I But, I disappoint of THAT governmental service whatsoever. I will never ever trust propaganda of Damned Local Stupid Little Things that monopolize the market, just because there are products of government company. If there is a motion: “We should privatize the managing of natural wealth and all matters relating to lives of many people for the welfare of the entire population of Indonesia.” I’ll be the affirmative. For sure. just DONT ASK! tx. Labels: stupid Well, I just heal from a non-internet-week. My modem was out of function last week and I need to buy a new one. Today is the first trial of my new modem. And it works wonderful. I ever live one year with total isolation from any internet connection: non internet hp, no home connection, and else. I was fine that time and I think I will fine too, now. But right now, it's so much different. I realize that internet already become a part--an important part of my self. I can't live without it. It haunts me. It's itchy, you know, when you can do nothing to make you online. When my old modem died, I beg my dad to ask his employee to check it up. When he can't fix it, I beg my dad to call his friends in the ISP. Become a crybaby. Ah. Somehow, internet become my addiction and my bad habit. -sigh- a really bad habit Holidays coming but sadly, I miss my old days :| It's kinda weird, I admit that. You know, I am the one who counting down the days to my holiday, but now? I'm also the one who counting down the days to the time I'll reach back. Well, I bored, actually. My days usually filled with endless task from campus, busy activity and different routine that successfully take my breath away. And now? I just sleeping lazily in front of my computer, doing nothing. I do like a lazy chewing cow. I'm gaining weigh!!!!! *crying*   Yeah, this bound between us is very important to me. I'd rather be stupid than lose you. Labels: friendship, life, love, stupid i wish i could be thankful for everything that i have and what i haven't and please, God, i know you always give me the best i could have but, will you give it to me a little faster?  I want to type all things that pops out of my head, but I think it just to much. Labels: stupid "It's better to just quietly miss someone. Rather than let them know and just get no response."  Saya sebenarnya memang seneng ikut-ikut kuis geje di fesbuk. Mulai dari "Temukan arti dibalik namamu", "Inisial yang suka denganmu", "Kota yang cocok dengan pribadimu", sampai "Artis yang mirip lo" bahkan "Kapan kau mati" dll deh. Wkwk. Hidup saya emang ga jauh-jauh deh dari dunia kegeje-an. Well, semuanya berjalan normal-normal aja sampai saya mencoba kuis yang satu ini. Saya sebenarnya juga sudah lupa judul kuisnya apa *slapped*, kalo ga salah sih "What 'Falling in Love with' type are you" gitu deh. Dan... hasilnya entah kenapa kena banget. Haha. Orang bilang kalo ikut kuis-kuis kayak gini jawaban benar dengan jawaban meramput tuh perbandingannya 1:1000. Duh, semoga saja saya termasuk yang 1 itu deh :p Haha. Udah ah, langsung aja ke hasil kuis gejenya :D Here we come.. You Fall for the Guy or Girl Next Door Type Aduh saya pingin teriak kenceng-kenceng: Bener sekali. Bener sekali. BENER SEKALI!!!!!!! *dijedotin ke tembok* Saya bukan tipe yang percaya sama ramalan atau whatever lah namanya, tapi hal ini bkin saya kaget dan pingin teriak sekali lagi... AWESOOMMEE!! Saya harus nyoba kuis-kuis lain nih :p *ngabur nyari kuis-kuis geje bin awesome di fesbuk* (KDK: gambarnya saya colong dari sini, saya ga pernah baca buku itu sebelumnya >:))  Before our heart decide I know, He just being nice. But I can't hold it anymore. It always makes me fly and burst of hoping, again and again. And when it just too late. I can't go back. is trying to take it back before it all went wrong And the question is? How can I fool my own self? I know, I just such a dumb foolish But you know, the thing about romance is... people only get together right at the very end ~ Sam in Love Actually Saya ini adalah orang yang percaya kalo segala sesuatu pasti berakhir Happy Ending. Selalu optimis kalo hidup setiap orang itu diatur dalam path masing-masing yang kesemuanya mengarah pada suatu titik tertinggi--titik yang menjadi tujuan individu itu hidup. titik dimana ia bahagia... Namun hari ini, saya mulai ragu dengan pernyataan yang sudah lama saya yakini. Hari ini teman saya yang hampir dua minggu putus, ditelpon kembali sama mantannya, as you already guessed, dia diajak balikan. Dan temen saya itu mempertimbangkan untuk say yes. Ck. Pathetic. Padahal dia putus karena cowoknya playboy. Semua orang tau kenyataan itu. Dan temen saya nerima kekurangan dia apa adanya. Ya, ya temen saya itu emang polos, baik dan lembut. Alasan itulah yang buat saya ga tega ngeliatnya yang udah disakitin dua kali ama orang yang sama--hal yang sama--alasan yang sama lagi. Dan sekarang kalo saya ngebiarin dia pacaran lagi ama orang itu, sama aja saya bakal ngeliat yang ketiga, keempat, kelima dan entah keberapa kali lagi. Dilain pihak, temen saya itu ga bisa kalo sama orang lain. Dia ga bahagia. ..... jadi saya harus gimana? saya seperti harus memilih satu dari dua sisi mata uang... Belum lagi selesai urusan teman saya itu, saya ditatapmukakan dengan kasus baru. Seorang teman, sebuah jejaring sosial, sebuah pernyataan. Aneh, shock, bingung. Kumpulan perasaan yang membuat mata saya melek sepanjang malam dan menelurkan tulisan ini. Well yeah, i just have a pasion to update this blog after that silly incident, that's true. Sorry. Cinta Aneh, betapa ucapan itu bisa diucapkan dengan sespontan itu. Padahal menurut saya kata itu kata sakral. Kata yang udah dijadikan mantra hidup dari beribu-ribu generasi sebelum kita dan akan terus dipuja selama beribu-ribu generasi dibawah kita pula. Kata yang membuat banyak pemikir tertegun, para pujangga memuja, para pendosa berdusta. Kata yang bisa membuat dua manusia saling bunuh, saling benci, saling mengorbankan hidup demi pasangan yang ia cintai. Kata yang bisa membuat suatu peradaban hancur, atau malah membentuk sebuah generasi baru dalam sejarah manusia. ...dan saya memilih untuk tetap menyakralkan kisah cinta saya sendiri. Saya menunggu. Kisah saya sendiri--walau saya masih tidak yakin. I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but in one respect I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough. ~ Duke in The Notebook |
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